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Heart skips! [Thursday November 11th, at 11:57am] [ mood | pensive ] Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop. -Grey's Anatomy This is partially locked. Aren't all livejournals? 19 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

Pissed off. [Sunday May 31st, at 9:32pm] I've had enough. I'm moving. ATTITUDE

[Sunday May 31st, at 8:56pm] AH PEGI MAMPOS KAY. PEGI MAMPOS. FUCK YOU! ATTITUDE

EAT SHIT AH. [Saturday May 30th, at 4:23pm] [ mood | angry ] AH BUTO AH. WHEN YOUR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD IS IN NEED WHAT DO YOU DO? YOU ASK THEM WHEN THEY'RE GONNA PAY BACK THEIR MONEY. YOU HAVE THOUSANDS IN YOUR BANK ACCOUNT AND STILL, STILL YOU COUNT THAT FUCKING 50 BUCKS LIKE AS IF IT'S A MILLION. AND FOR GOD'S SAKE. IT'S YOUR OWN SISTER. NOT SOME BLOODY STRANGER. FUCK OFF AH. PALA BUTO. I HATE YOU TO THE FUCKCORE. TO THE FUCKING FUCKCORE. PISS OFF. 1 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

Times like this [Wednesday May 27th, at 9:38pm] [ mood | angry ] There are times when I feel like I want to smash my brother's face into a pulp. Like right now.  -punches pillow instead cuz I'd die if I punched him ATTITUDE

Oh the fates. [Wednesday May 27th, at 6:37pm] [ mood | crappy ] I don't know how riders can possibly ride in this hot hot heat. I went out for about half an hour cuz I had to run errands for Mum and ohboy, I almost melted, if I could that is. Anyway, I think I should start paying attention to my surrounding cuz I was actually at the bus stop for about a couple of minutes and I didn't realise my niece, Maryam, was actually infront of me. So when I actually looked properly, I actually saw my cousin, Kak Adik, standing next to her. And so we talked about her kids. Aiyah I miss her kids. They're so cute that I want to keep them in my pocket. Hahahahaha. So for once in my life I don't want to screw things up. But I think I'm halfway there already. Kinah, where are you? I need you ): 2 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

Of my favourite past time;sleep [Wednesday May 20th, at 12:22pm] I was lying on my bed ytd afternoon while Adik was playing The Sims 2 on my laptop when she said  she felt like sleeping cuz of my room's atmosphere. You see, my room's partially red and when I wake up, I tend to open the windows abit else it'll get stuffy and I'll get cranky. So anyway, I don't switch on the light and it's just really dark, breezy and nice and and and my fan makes this funny noise which is really soothing. It's like my personal lullaby. Now you know why I take a really long time to wake up in the mornings, hey? Since we're on this subject, I'll share with you the 2nd best place to sleep. I think my babygirls will agree with me on this. It's Fifi's place. Everyone falls asleep there. Especially when she had that big comfy sofa where we'll all fight to lie down on. It was heaven when she switched off the lights (her living room's painted black btw) and turned on the fan to full blast. Bliss I tell you. And the third, is my aunt, Ucu's couch. Her husband, Ayah, hates it. Ayah's always saying how couches are meant to be sat on and not slept on but, we do it all the same. Once, I was so tired from school that I went back to her place and just crashed on her couch for i-don't-know-how-many-hours. Of course I woke up happy :DDDD Hahahaha. Anyway, I wish for one day where I don't have to scream and shout at my Dad. Just one day. Pfffffffffft. Okay, I have to do my chores, hit the showers and head to Fifi's. Apparently Feka's there already. They woke me up at 10 am. THANKS BABIES!   ATTITUDE

Of the hundred things on my mind. [Monday May 18th, at 12:16pm] [ mood | restless ] If it's good that I'm thinking then why don't I feel good? 6 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

Compare [Sunday May 17th, at 6:15pm] [ mood | sleepy ] Fifi's back! - Does victory dance I think I shall pay her a visit after I ngaji. ANYWAY, AFIQ'S BEING A BITCH. STOP ASKING ME ABOUT MY EMPLOYMENT STATUS. IT'S FUCKING DEPRESSING LAH WAHLAO. ATTITUDE

Don't let it burn [Saturday May 16th, at 4:44pm] [ mood | contemplative ] My friday night was spent with these 3 lovely girls. Anyway, I'm over at Bedok cuz I had to help my aunt at PCF and do face paint and henna for kids which I did not do cuz I'm lazy like that. I had a fun time talking crap with Hakim, my cousin in case you people think it's the other Hakim(brown eyes), before falling asleep. So, I think I'm crashing here for another night. OH YEAH. SO TODAY'S RAHMAN AND YANIE'S WEDDING BUT SOME SMART GIRL -POINTS TO AIN- INSISTED IT WAS ON THE SUNDAY SO I PROMISED MY AUNT TO HELP HER OUT. AND YTD NIGHT THAT SMART GIRL -POINTS TO AIN AGAIN- TEXTED ME INFORMING THAT IT WAS TODAY. SO, YEAH. -rolls eyes and flicks hair P.S I hope you're okay Fi. It breaks my heart calling you in first thing in the morning and hearing you like that. We all care for you even if you're way down under. Another few more hours baby and you'll be on the flight back home. (: 2 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

Of the unpredictable weather. [Friday May 15th, at 3:45pm] [ mood | okay ] I am currently very much in love with Emily Browning after watching The Uninvited over at Atc's on wednesday night. I can't believe she's 2O years old. Like ahmagaaaa. So anyway, it looks like it's gonna rain but Feka, Iman, Qad and I are supposed to head to Botanical Gardens. How babies? P.S ONE MORE DAY TILL FIFI COMES BACK! YIPEEEEEEEE!!! 2 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

Confiance [Thursday May 14th, at 1:36pm] [ mood | irritated ] This, this up here, cannot do. How come none of you women are online when I need to fucking rant? ATTITUDE

Neolithic embrace [Wednesday May 13th, at 10:08pm] [ mood | restless ] I don't care whether you did or did not. I care if you lied. Please say you didn't. - hides under covers   ATTITUDE

These silly little wounds will never mend. [Wednesday May 13th, at 3:28pm] [ mood | energetic ] THANK YOU IMAN BABY. GUA JUMPA LU HARI LAIN AH BRO. 3 DAYS! 3 DAYS! GOOD LUCK FEKA SYG FOR YOURS TMR. TO EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU WHO ASKED ME HOW MY INTERVIEW WENT; IT WENT OKAY THANK YOU FOR CARING SO MUCH I LOVE YOU! KINAH, HURRY UP WITH YOUR N.E THING. I NEED TO BITCH, WHINE AND CYBER STALK PEOPLE WITH YOU AND ATC AT HER HUMBLE ABODE. I JUST FEEL LIKE TYPING IN CAPS TODAY. CUZ I AM FUCKING SLEEPY. NO LINK RIGHT, I KNOW! How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood? - giggles   ATTITUDE

If it's good, it's got to last. [Tuesday May 12th, at 2:55pm] [ mood | hopeful ] 3 days straight I tell you. 3 days straight people have been coming to my house and disturbing my sleep. On sunday it was some people from my dad's kampung who came to pay him a visit. Ytd it was my aunt who came just to scream at me to wake up and bring my parents out. And today, Adik came cuz alah, she just comes to eat and make me go back with her. Anyway, ytd I went out with Iman, again. Eh b, muke you je. Hahahahaha. I had her accompany shop for clothes for the interview tmr at an undisclosed location. Hehehehehe. Then we walked around and had dinner at LJS and headed to CWP to photocopy some documents but forgetful me forgot to photocopy my IC. Chuck came and joined us. We hanged for a while and headed home at around 1030. Dear friends, wish me luck for the interview tmr. Oh God, I so need this job so my mum can go for her treatment. Oh God. Digressing off, I miss Isetan. I miss working with everyone. I miss going for breaks with Shakila and Norlin. I miss my G star and Esprit eye candy. ):   Oh btw, Fifi's coming home this sat! 4 more days bro! And Feka baby, I love you. P.S. I had a dream I was having supper at Aliff with Su (Hafiz's gf??!?!??!!!) and Hafiz walked past us. Iman, ni you nye psl ah. Tak nak makan prata dengan I smlm malam. HAHAHAHAHA. ATTITUDE

Like bandung and blueberry [Sunday May 10th, at 1:47pm] [ mood | cheerful ] I don't understand why I have the urge to poop every time I wake up. Really. What a bad feeling to wake up to. Anyway, wwbf and I were meant to have Popeyes ytd but it being the Mother's day weekend and she being a family oriented person, I got ditched. Hahahahha but I love you still. So I was stuck at home on a Saturday with no plans. I thought of going out with Saiful and Shahrul before I met Chuck after his jamming session but obviously Zul would be there and I didn't exactly want to see him so yeah. So I lazed around at home till it was time to head out. Met Chuck and we hanged and caught the last train home. (: The brother wanted to bring Mum out for dinner at Swensen's and seeing as my dad will be such a hassle and the place packed, the brother's gonna order pizza instead and Shirin's gonna come over after the both of them have celebrated with Shirin's mum. And I have to do the chores and be a good girl today and not go out and get my mum pissed at me. Oh and Happy Mother's Day to Mama, Ucu, Acik, Aunty and Aie. These 5 women are my life. I love you all infinityzxzzxz. Thank you for bringing me up :DDD   ATTITUDE

These mistakes you make, you'll just make them again. [Saturday May 9th, at 2:41pm] I think being jobless has taken it's toll on me. I keep confusing my dates and public holidays and I get mad at myself. Hahahahah. Anyway, I had supper at Aliff last night with Iman and her cousin. Zool thinks we're regulars there but we're not. That's just temporary. Till Fifi comes back and welcomes us with open arms and plates of Auntie Sam's delicious chicken. Hehehehe. Oh and thanks Zool for the ride home. My ez link didn't have any value anyway. Heh thanks! Anyway, I have such a tell tale for a brother even though he's 23. He told my mum I was on the phone at 5 in the morning and now my mum's probably thinking I have a boyfriend. And my brother's watching TV so noisily and not allowing my mum to sleep. She'll be so cranky when she wakes up and gets ready for her night shift later. Pfffft brothers. 4 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

Cars on the cable [Friday May 8th, at 2:51pm] I just finished reading A Thousand Splendid Suns last night and it was heartbreaking. It's so cruel and sad and I can't stop crying. Just thinking about it, scares me. I always thought that I was going through so much but what I didn't know was, people in Afghanistan were going through much more. I feel like I've been so ignorant to all these. Imagine seeing your dad's headless body next you or picking up your kid's arms and decaying legs. And for these people to still have faith and live just shows how strong they are. I can't stop thinking how thankful I am to at least have this life. I am so thankful but I can promise you that there will be a day when I'll be a cow and start complaining how my life sucks. 3 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

Find the rewind button [Thursday May 7th, at 11:32pm] [ mood | hopeful ] I think I need to set up a "Text me at 3am" club for my girls and for me too. I pray that Fifi's coming back in 9 days. Oh God please say Fifi's gonna come back soon. We all miss her like crazy. ATTITUDE

Break your heart [Thursday May 7th, at 1:37pm] [ mood | pensive ] Jangan tegur with Iman ytd was crazy. I for one had my hands in my face most of the time. The sound effects were killer and I was going "oh no oh no oh gooood oh no oh noooo thanks ah iman oh my god oh no oh nooooooooooooooo cibai sial ah oh noooooo ya allah oh nooooooo". Hahahha you get the gist. I was creeped out. Thanks ah Iman, you're awesome. Lucky Feka wasn't there. She would have been swearing the whole time and we might have been chased out. Urgh. But I didn't know that scary movies worked up your appetite cuz we got hungry after the movie. And so we headed to Al Azhar. Iman was so nice to send me right in front of my door.  But only because she was meeting Aly who lives a couple of blocks from me. I've been thinking alot and it's been consuming me. Dear Ain, I wish you weren't so busy with FYP. ):   1 LOVE MY ATTITUDE

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