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November 11th, at 11:57am] |
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Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.-Grey's Anatomy This is partially locked. Aren't all livejournals?
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[Sunday
May 31st, at 8:56pm] |
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AH PEGI MAMPOS KAY. PEGI MAMPOS. FUCK YOU!
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| EAT SHIT AH. |
[Saturday
May 30th, at 4:23pm] |
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AH BUTO AH. WHEN YOUR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD IS IN NEED WHAT DO YOU DO? YOU ASK THEM WHEN THEY'RE GONNA PAY BACK THEIR MONEY. YOU HAVE THOUSANDS IN YOUR BANK ACCOUNT AND STILL, STILL YOU COUNT THAT FUCKING 50 BUCKS LIKE AS IF IT'S A MILLION. AND FOR GOD'S SAKE. IT'S YOUR OWN SISTER. NOT SOME BLOODY STRANGER. FUCK OFF AH. PALA BUTO. I HATE YOU TO THE FUCKCORE. TO THE FUCKING FUCKCORE. PISS OFF.
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| Grace |
[Friday
May 29th, at 1:48pm] |
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Aie : Aie tengah makan bread and butter pudding. Yummy!
Me : Email me some. Nadia tengah buat ape?
Aie : Tengok Wiggles.
NOT MY FAULT WHAT I MISS AIE AND NADIA ): HAIYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. My aunt's bread and butter pudding is absolutely delicious. Like I'll lick the pan if I had the chance. And The Wiggles are addictive. I was there for 2 weeks and up till now, I can still remember the songs and their dance steps. Anyway my mum bought summer dresses for little Nadia eventhough it's winter over there. -_- My mum thinks the weather there is like SG. I hope it'll fit her still come summer.
Digressing off, I told Fifi to slap me in the future in the event I become rich(which is a long shot) and forget my roots. Because some people are just so, I don't know what's the word, stingy I think. I don't know. I've had enough of this. It's starting to wear me out. Le sigh.
Okay okay. Gotta do chores. Gotta suck up to Mum. Want to text the boyfriend but can't. Have. To. Control. Must. Not. Waste. Prepaid. Must. Not. Call. Or. Text. Unneccessarily. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
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| Muhammad Saifuddin Bin Zulfattah |
[Friday
May 29th, at 2:07am] |
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2am and I'm still awake writing this song. If I get it all down on the paper it's no longer inside of me threatening the life it belongs to..... HAHAHAHHA. Okay fine. That was Anna Nalick. I just find it apt at the moment. Anyway the purpose of this entry is for this irritating boy down here.  (I hate that he has such straight teeth. PFFFFT!) Dear Chuck, since you'll open my lj site the moment you get to class, I thought it'd be nice if you were greeted with this. You make me happy in a real sincere kind of way. I don't fake it. I don't get nervous when meeting you which is good cuz when I get nervous I tend to puke which is not good. Heh. I forgot what else I wanted to type down cuz I'm fucking sleepy already. But I just want you to know, I love you lah. Now stop staring at my picture on your phone and go do your work! Heheheheheheh <333333333333333
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| Like finding a sweet while eating fries. |
[Thursday
May 28th, at 3:52pm] |
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Hi hi! First things first. I is sadzxzx cuz two close friends of mine called me taik. -points to Hafiz and Zan- And one even called me irritating and still can tell Ain that I'm so irritating behind my back. - points to Zan- And and and one even has the cheek to ask me whether I'll turn up for his gig tmr. -points to Zan again- This type of friends also have ): But I'm a nice friend so I'll turn up for his gig and hopes he put "ROXANNE IS COOL" on his case to show the world. -crosses fingers-
Halfway updating this, my mum woke up and asked me why I've not hung the laundry and of course I gave her the "Macam nak hujan ah ma" reason. Hahahaha.
Anyway, I complained to Mum about my brother and she asked me why I didn't scold my brother. Are you kidding me?Dah bagus kalau aku tak kene sepak. I don't know what's up with my brother sometimes. It's like as if he's possesed. I've never seen my dad so scared. My dad even said sorry and knowing my dad, he NEVER says sorry. Like NEVER. I don't understand how one can instill such fear in someone else, someone who's your dad. -SIGHS.
Hmmz, I'm supposed to go to Ain's gallery thing at NAFA but since she's not at school, I'll go tmr or smth. So I'll meet Chuckechuckechuckechucklove tonight. (:
Af(r)eeeek just texted me saying he's at Arnold's. Oh whatever. Go away already.
PS. My mum keeps on walking infront of my dad while he's sitting on the floor and she'll pretend to almost fall on my dad's amputated leg. And my dad will shout. So irritating ah this mother of mine. Ahhhhh dear Chuck, now you know where I get my irritating-ness. -looks at mum-
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| Times like this |
[Wednesday
May 27th, at 9:38pm] |
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There are times when I feel like I want to smash my brother's face into a pulp. Like right now.
-punches pillow instead cuz I'd die if I punched him
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| Oh the fates. |
[Wednesday
May 27th, at 6:37pm] |
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I don't know how riders can possibly ride in this hot hot heat. I went out for about half an hour cuz I had to run errands for Mum and ohboy, I almost melted, if I could that is. Anyway, I think I should start paying attention to my surrounding cuz I was actually at the bus stop for about a couple of minutes and I didn't realise my niece, Maryam, was actually infront of me. So when I actually looked properly, I actually saw my cousin, Kak Adik, standing next to her. And so we talked about her kids. Aiyah I miss her kids. They're so cute that I want to keep them in my pocket. Hahahahaha.
So for once in my life I don't want to screw things up. But I think I'm halfway there already. Kinah, where are you? I need you ):
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| WAH AKU BINGIT. |
[Tuesday
May 26th, at 3:00pm] |
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Today is a bad day. Today. I want to kill people. Today Feka called me at 8.34am cuz someone kanchong spider want to jobhunt. But you don't have to call me and scream in my ears lah. I'm not a morning person. And aku tak pentingkan tido dari keje okay. I'm just really tired. But nvm.
And I'm up to my neck with Dad ordering me around. Switch on the light, switch off the light, close the door, open the gate, make coffee for him, bring in the laundry, close the windows. WAHLAO. IM NOT A FUCKING ROBOT OKAY. AND HE SMOKES THE ROLL UP CIGGERATE OR WEED I DONT FUCKING CARE. AND IT PISSES ME OFF CUZ I HAVE TO SWEEP UP THE BITS AND PIECES ON THE FLOOR. WAH AKU BINGIT.
AND Nisah just prompted me on MSN about how Adik's classmates are treating her. Name calling is name calling is name calling is name calling but calling someone 'PEREMPUAN SIAL' at the age of 14(and i betcha they have no idea what it really means) is ABSURD. First the lesbian thing now this? I feel like I'm in secondary school all over again. Adik, don't worry. They're not Gods. Maybe in school they are but like what Nisah said, "in mine, she's an ant who deserves nothing but to be sprayed by mak's baygon" Well said Nisah. Well said. (Y)
And if you girls read this, you girls are like this -shows speck of dirt and flicks it-
The only good thing about today was Macs breakfast with Mama. Okay enough already. I want to go meet my sweet lovely boyfriend. (:
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| Get in here |
[Tuesday
May 26th, at 1:30am] |
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I can't seem to sleep. I think cuz it's too fucking hot. I had a shower already in case you people are wondering. But ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i want to die cuz it's so hot. And cuz so many things are happening this upcoming month but I am so broke. For example, Timbre(maybe) with the W34D clan,GMAX for Iman's 19th and alot more. Anyway, since I failed my mission to not whine about how penniless I am, I'm gonna complain now. (Triggered by the best friend a while ago cuz I was discussing with her about the difference of HOT 100 and the use of free incoming) ( zee convo )You see when I was working, Kinah would, I think once or twice a month, come down to town during my break and we'd have deli lunches and if there was enough time, we'd squeeze in shopping. But we had to say goodbye to all that. We're rich bitches no more ): Wait till I get a new job then we'd resume our high life, hey? Anyway, I miss Chuckechuckechuckechuckechuck. Oh Chuck.<3
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| Overdue. |
[Monday
May 25th, at 1:51pm] |
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 Fi, I SWEAR I LOVE YOUR BROWS MAN. macam sexy like that. This was on Friday night at Al Azhar for Zool's 19th. There are actually more pictures but Khai won't send them cuz he said this is the only nice ones. Alah tengok lah siape dalam gambar. Heheheheh. From dinner at Al Azhar to playing charades at WCP and back to Aliff, eh wait was it Habib, for drinks. Happy 19th Zool! I hope you find a girlfriend soon! Hhahahahaha kay keeeding. Anyway, Shirin's coming over and it's so unfair that my mum's always cooking nice food when she comes. Maybe my mum doesn't love me anymore ): And I'm trying so hard not to whine about the big hole in my wallet. ))))): I miss Chuck ):
PS My family went back to sleep when I woke up an hour ago. Baik! I have to fry the chicken and cook the soup. Baik Mama!
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| No one else will know this lonely dreams |
[Sunday
May 24th, at 3:07pm] |
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The girls are thinking of heading to Fifi's but I have a feeling my mum will get all pissy on me cuz I've been going out every night. Haiyaaaaa. Anyway, I met Chuck last night and we chilled at Esplanade.Not Fray okay babies. Tsk. Hahahahaaha. As always this boy merepek mintak kene pijak but alah, I love you. Heheh. Bus-ed home and I have no idea what got into my brother but at 1230, he kept calling and said that if I wasn't home in how many minutes, he'd go down to the bus stop. And true to his words, I was walking to the bus stop near my house and he was walking towards me. Merepek sia this one brother. I don't get it. I hang at Aliff till 1 am and he shuts his gap. But last night, I have no idea what got into him. Pfffffffft brothers. Ugh anyway, I was webcamming with Ain awhile ago and obviously I'd print screen what. She's at Chapter 5 with Dxp. They're playing 23 by Jimmy Eat World. That song can make me cry like fuck. Aiya, so many songs can make me cry like fuck but this particular one is damn bloody awesome. But it's in my other laptop which can't be switched on anymore. So I had to rummage through my mum's handbag and look for her MP3 cuz I remember putting the song in there. ( A FEW OF AIN'S MANY SPASTIC FACES! )Okay now I have to go do my chores and kiss my mum's feet. Hahahahaha. Keeeding. I need to suck up and be a good girl. Bye!
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| Gayrek |
[Friday
May 22nd, at 6:33pm] |
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 I think I've been neglecting my best friend. I'm sorry ): But I miss you. Ughhhh. Hmmz, anyway met Chuck last night for a movie. I actually watched The Uninvited already over at Atc's but I just needed to watch it another time cuz I wanted to watch it properly. It was noisy over at Atc's cuz her mum was packing keropok. Hahahaha. So yeah. Chuck treated me. Thank you! We had dinner after that at LJS where I bumped into Fairuz and called Fifi but someone don't want to pick up my phone calls anymore what. Tsk. So called Iman instead. Hhehehehehe. Chuck and I chilled at Esplanade to talk crap cuz that boy very merepek I tell you. He loves to cheat my feelings and lie to me about stuff. - Sulks for a hundred minutes. Hahahaha. We bus-ed home soon cuz Shirin was asking me where I was. Right now, I'm having the worst cramps ever. Fuck menses! Pfffffffft. But but but I so have to go get ready cuz Feka and the rest are at WM already. I'm going for dinner at Al Azhar for Zool's birthday celebration. P.S I'm so tempted to delete this eljay but ahhh too many memories and and and some guy -points to Chuck- won't let me.
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[Thursday
May 21st, at 3:37pm] |
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Hello aliens! Ytd was fun fun fun at Fifi's. Feka hardcore. Spent 14 hours there cuz she arrived at 9 am. -_- Fifi cooked pasta for us and it was yummy hence we conclude that Fifi boleh kahwin already. Baby Syara is so hyper ah fi. How do you stand it? I get tired watching her run around man. I just realise how happy I am. I don't know how to explain this feeling but maybe having Fifi, Feka, Iman, Qad and Ezann around is so nice. I really don't know how to explain this but like what Fifi said, "maybe we have alot in common'. More than we thought. I don't know what I'd do without you girls. Anyway, I was about to update this eljay when I heard my mum wake up and I ran to the kitchen to hang the laundry. But she caught me in the act. Mama : Asl kau tak jemur kain dari tadi? Me : Ah, dari tadi mcm nak hujan ah ma. (Actually, the weather was fine) Mama : Kau jangan bedek. I'm a sucker when it comes to lying to my mum. But that's good right? Cuz I don't lie to my mum, much. ( Hehehehehehe. Mentelzxzxzx )Okay, till I remember what I need to blog about! Bye!
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| Of my favourite past time;sleep |
[Wednesday
May 20th, at 12:22pm] |
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I was lying on my bed ytd afternoon while Adik was playing The Sims 2 on my laptop when she said she felt like sleeping cuz of my room's atmosphere. You see, my room's partially red and when I wake up, I tend to open the windows abit else it'll get stuffy and I'll get cranky. So anyway, I don't switch on the light and it's just really dark, breezy and nice and and and my fan makes this funny noise which is really soothing. It's like my personal lullaby. Now you know why I take a really long time to wake up in the mornings, hey?
Since we're on this subject, I'll share with you the 2nd best place to sleep. I think my babygirls will agree with me on this. It's Fifi's place. Everyone falls asleep there. Especially when she had that big comfy sofa where we'll all fight to lie down on. It was heaven when she switched off the lights (her living room's painted black btw) and turned on the fan to full blast. Bliss I tell you.
And the third, is my aunt, Ucu's couch. Her husband, Ayah, hates it. Ayah's always saying how couches are meant to be sat on and not slept on but, we do it all the same. Once, I was so tired from school that I went back to her place and just crashed on her couch for i-don't-know-how-many-hours. Of course I woke up happy :DDDD Hahahaha.
Anyway, I wish for one day where I don't have to scream and shout at my Dad. Just one day. Pfffffffffft.
Okay, I have to do my chores, hit the showers and head to Fifi's. Apparently Feka's there already. They woke me up at 10 am. THANKS BABIES!
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[Tuesday
May 19th, at 4:24pm] |
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 Great conversations (kening naik2) + awesome company for 2 nights straight = LOVE! Anyway, I was supposed to accompany my cousin to JP today but we got lazy and decided to just bunk my place and play The Sims 2. I'm currently quite sleepy and very very bored. I want to go out but I'm too lazy plus I don't have kachings. Ugh depressing much. ( Tagged by Iman Qiztina Adams )OKAY THAT'S ALL BYE!
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[Sunday
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 Fifi's back! - Does victory dance I think I shall pay her a visit after I ngaji. ANYWAY, AFIQ'S BEING A BITCH. STOP ASKING ME ABOUT MY EMPLOYMENT STATUS. IT'S FUCKING DEPRESSING LAH WAHLAO. |
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| Don't let it burn |
[Saturday
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 My friday night was spent with these 3 lovely girls, Chuck and his friends. Anyway, I'm over at Bedok cuz I had to help my aunt at PCF and do face paint and henna for kids which I did not do cuz I'm lazy like that. I had a fun time talking crap with Hakim, my cousin in case you people think it's the other Hakim(brown eyes), before falling asleep. So, I think I'm crashing here for another night.
OH YEAH. SO TODAY'S RAHMAN AND YANIE'S WEDDING BUT SOME SMART GIRL -POINTS TO AIN- INSISTED IT WAS ON THE SUNDAY SO I PROMISED MY AUNT TO HELP HER OUT. AND YTD NIGHT THAT SMART GIRL -POINTS TO AIN AGAIN- TEXTED ME INFORMING THAT IT WAS TODAY. SO, YEAH.
-rolls eyes and flicks hair
P.S I hope you're okay Fi. It breaks my heart calling you in first thing in the morning and hearing you like that. We all care for you even if you're way down under. Another few more hours baby and you'll be on the flight back home. (:
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